My mom came over this morning, and was like "Maddi! DId you do your blog last night?"
This past week has gone so quickly. I can't even believe it. With the holiday season approaching, it really has me thinking about my family.
I was able to take a small road trip last week with my mom to little rock. I was thrilled because I was able to meet my cousins baby for the first time. He's so precious. He has wild man hair like Barrett did when he was born.
Going to children's and meeting him has me taking a walk down memory lane. It has really brought up a lot of feelings from when Barrett was born. Barrett was only in the hospital for 2 1/2 weeks. I say ONLY, because its been over a month now for this sweet baby boy. The entire time I was able to see him, I was holding back tears. How could I have been so selfish? You never realize it at the time, but looking back, I had certain expectations for how things would go. I know, that deep down, I know what she is going through. But really, I probably have no clue compared to her. Its lonely. Draining. Your feel like sometimes he takes 2 steps forward, then 3 back. It's awful. I thought I had it so bad. How wrong I was. Just To know that she just wants to hold him, and can't. Has never even held him once. To bond with this very special baby. If it was this upsetting to me, his 2nd cousin, I can't even imagine what she is going through as his mother. My heart broke that day. As a mom. As her cousin. And I love her. So PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE. Keep them in your thoughts and prayers. She is hoping that tomorrow is the day that she gets to hold him for the first time, but is unsure if it will happen. Please pray for a miracle for this baby. Miracles have already happened. Please pray for total healing for this little guy, and comfort for his mother. Pray for bonding between them. I touched base on my experience of bonding with Barrett in HIS BIRTH STORY. Please click on it and read it if you haven't. Our local down syndrome support group, had their annual Christmas party this weekend. It was great to see everyone. We hadn't, since the buddy walk at the end of October. It's so hard to leave once you get around your new friends. We all wish we could eachother more often. This is Barretts girlfriend lily.
And this is her pretty mamma. 
I love her. And just think, without Barrett, I would'nt have met these precious people. Really starting to enjoy the very lovely things about HOLLAND. <------click here if you haven't read about it. Nail color of the week. Gold leaf by Mary Kay. My new love. 
Don't freak out when you see this. Cause its not true. 
I just wanted to share what I randomly found in my garage last night. Here's the story: john ALWAYS guesses his Christmas gifts. No matter what. I could put some rocks in a box, with his Arkansas razorbacks shirt, and he would shake it. And say "some rocks....and a shirt" I was pretty sure he wasn't gonna be able to guess this one. It was the day before new years eve, and so, I just mentioned I had a late Christmas present for him. He shook it, didn't hear anything, but could feel that there was something inside. Thought it was a cute idea. I also think its funny that on the side of the box, it says "just do it." Har har. I think its so needed sometimes. To remember. To remember some fun/suprising times in my life. So I can think about how different my life would be without that positive pregnancy test. 
But also, to think about the times that didn't feel so great. Because it can make you reflect, to see how much you really are blessed. I get to wake up every morning, to two beautiful children. That I get to hold in my arms. And today, I am so grateful. Grateful to the only one who didn't have to give me so much.. 
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