October. mammas favorite month

Yet again. Another long eventful week. I remember when I was pregnant with Brinklee, and working at the mall. The kids play area was right there, and I would always say "see? That lady totally looks like a mom. I don't ever want to look like a mom." Only being 21, I wanted to look like someone that people would say "you have kids?!?!?" In public anyway. But guess what my friends? It's finally happened.mommyhood has caught up with me. I can't remember the last time I went some where with wet hair. Yep. Twice this week. I felt like crap. Wet hair. No time for make up.  It's amazing how when you actually get around to applying some make up, fixing your hair or shaving your legs, how much better you feel! Even tho I know it won't matter to any one else, it matters to me dangit! So I spent the last hour of work today, blowing out my hair....for a camping trip. Ridiculous. I know.

And through this whole thing, I have started to realize and accept the fact that when I have last minute company, or really, company at all, that my house will not look perfect. Everyone always says "well you should see mine!"  And for some reason, I never believe them. Now that the kids are getting older, man its tough to keep up. And I'm starting to accept it. It's hard, but its happening.

Since its fall now, I I've been wanting to do some "fallish" things. Like baking zucchini bread, and enjoying some PumpkIn spice coffee.



I had  to go next door to borrow a few eggs from my neighbors. They didn't have any. But he immediately called his mom, who lives one block over, went over and got Them for me. I then felt like I should probably bring over some zucchini bread for them, since they DID contribute.
Since I was over my calorie intake for the day, my only excuse for eating a small piece , hot out of the oven, (with butter) was that "I better try this first, to make sure it Tastes ok before bringing it over to them. " well its a good dang thing I did! Some how, I  have just have no talent for baking. I have a little ADD, and just can't fully pay attention I guess? I added about half the amount of sugar than called for. And I read the recipe, over and over and over and over....just so I wouldn't do something like this. But, at least it was something like sugar that went wrong. I can still sprinkle a little on top, and It's....okaaay. still not great. But dangit I worked hard baking that thang, so I'm eating it.
So did she....



Barrett did lots of fun stuff this week. Several times he has gotten up on his hands and knees by himself:D This made mammas week yall. It was hard for me to actually capture one of him doing it, because he would only do it for a split second. But he was almost there in these photos







I was able to meet up with a dear friend of mine this week. Her baby boy and Barrett share those same beautiful almond eyes. He reminds me so much of Barrett. can you believe that 90% of people abort babies like these? And almost half of the time, that test is wrong.







Every time I see him I keep hoping that Barrett will be like him. They enjoyed their baby bookworm. This is a great program for babies and toddlers. Monday's and Thursday's at 9:45 at the fayetteville library.
It's funny how even tho you don't get to see someone very often, you connect. You have things in common. And even when you've really got stuff to do, you just can't quit talking, cause you have SO much to talk about. I love friends like this. They are one in a million. And hold a big spot in this girls heart.
Barrett got a his new big boy carseat. He closes his eyes when he smiles. Kinda like mamma. I look like this in almost every drivers license picture.










Today was my daddy's birthday. He would have been 53. I wish he was here to see my babies.







Just attended a beautiful fall wedding.


I don't even know these people, and somehow, I  ALWAYS cry. What a sissy.
So here's to letting myself go, fall, weddings And my amazing friends and family. Cheers ~Maddi
P.s I miss you daddy. Rip